Friday, April 22, 2011

In My Dreams

In my dreams, I am a writer. I write gently. Beautiful words and truthful. I don't know exactly what I write: devotions, articles, or Bible lessons. That part remains illusive. But I know that I write, and it pleases Him.

In my reality, I'm more of a scribbler than I am a writer. My repertoire consists mostly of journals. I write my heart out on the pages of spiral-bound notebooks. They can attest to the fact that I lay it all on the line. Hopes--dreams--disappointments--sins--confessions--my daily struggle to walk by faith and not by my feelings.

In my dreams, I am a writer. A good writer. Effective. Compelling. Those who read my words want to get into Jesus more, and they want to get into His word more. I accomplish my goal. God is good. Life is good.

In my reality, I tell God that I'm tired of following this dream. It's too difficult. Too much waiting. I ask Him to make my not-so-magnificient obsession go away. Give me my life back. I want to go somewhere else. Any place besides this nightmare.

In my dreams, I am a writer. I stay focused. God guides my steps. I take one at a time. I get there.

In my reality, I realize that I have a long way to go. I feel so alone. Does anyone understand?

In my dreams, I am a writer....

A longing fulfilled is sweet to the soul (Proverbs 19a).

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7 comments:

  1. When I read your posts I know that you are a writer.

    Blessings to you and your family this Easter season.

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  2. Oh Deb, I know exactly what you mean. I think MOST writers start out just that way. It is difficult to begin as an unknown. But if that's what God has laid on your heart-keep on. You write to please Him. (I keep reminding myself.)

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  3. I can definitely understand the feelings that come with an unfulfilled dream. It's very difficult. ..I know this may not help, but your blog is a lovely place, where your writing is being used to bless others. It blesses me, and I can tell by the other comments that I always read here, it blesses them too. God is using your writing. It may not be a book yet, but it is still very meaningful. ♥

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  4. What will it take for you to say, "I am a writer"?

    Writing is invading your dreams, your bones, your heart. He has given it to you, You are a writer. Write for Him and for what He does to you when you write, friend. Blessings on you!

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  5. Beautiful post, Deb.

    Writing is my dream, too. Only I never understood how HARD it would be. I didn't understand the tenacity required, the study, the willingness to face rejection over and over, and the plain truth of paying my dues for years.

    I do know this. If we continue to trust our dreams to Him and are willing to work hard and not give up, our writing dreams will come true.

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  6. Yes, I understand. It's sometimes hard to progress through our God-given dreams. Like you, I'm waiting for a few of mine to come to pass. But sister, you are a writer and you are blessing lives. How I pray that God will take your gift further and continue to show his faithfulness to you in this one area.

    Love you, friend.

    peace~elaine

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  7. Deb,
    In reality you are the best because you are doing His will.
    I love you,
    Next to Big Sis

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